Saturday, July 11, 2009

When I first realized…





I was watching some TV show on a lazy Saturday morning, sitting on my couch at the hotel where I've been staying for a month now. Being abroad has its own good and bad sides as you could possibly think about anything else in life too. WalMart showed up in between with a very emotional ad featuring a mom helping her son set up his hostel room and letting him be his own soon after. It was pretty obvious that it was his first time away from home!

Isn't it kind of interesting the way your mind switches between the present and past? I must say, it didn't even take a fraction of a second for my mind to do that! It took me back to that courtyard right in front of my hostel room in Coimbatore. That was the very first time for me too. Needless to say my dad and mom were with me. I was concerned, so were they. Its not that I can't be away, but just that the first times are always difficult. The very thought that your kid is gonna be away from home must've been painful for them. For me, it was a new world, a new life and a new beginning. For them, they go back to their old world with one good thing lesser to be around.

I'm not sure if they realized then, but I guess they did eventually, that their son has grown up and the most natural thing for a parent to do is to let him go. They didn't fret, at least not in front of me. Might have cried to each other and I could visualize dad & mom telling each other, it is for his good!

I remember that day when they helped me buy some stuff needed for the hostel room. Carried them along with me to the place and helped set it up. I also recollect that mom didn't say much, though I could figure out how heavy her heart must've felt. I don't remember if she cried, but I'm sure she did once she started back. Dad never expressed much but I knew that, deep inside he loved me so much! They both just asked me to take care and left me to start my new life. They pretty much were aware of how important it is for me to get away from being taken care of. I need to learn. I need to live. It is gonna be my life!
Dad, mom, I don't know what made me so lucky to have you as my parents! Thank you for being there and thank God for joining us. I love you both so much!!!

8 comments:

  1. Jerry my man , why so serious ... i remember my first time away from home as the most exciting day of my life ... in my case my folks had two others to fall back on :-)

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  2. Jerry, Nice :) I too remember when I left my parents to get into college. They left me at the airport in Dubai to board a flight to Kerala, I could see both of them in tears, mom's more evident than dad's. Though I had a heavy heart, I was successful in not crying in front of them. I was going away from parents, my home and everything I had known till then. It was hard, but it was reality.
    The saddest thing is I have neither been able to go back to living with my parents nor do I think I will be able to. I guess this is a chapter of life which is common to all our lives; and the best thing is just to accept it :)

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  3. dude...... if i had to turn you away from the emotions and all, just imagine what would've happened if they didn't let you go.........?

    No fosters, no PJ's..... etc. :P

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  4. and Sudhakar...you forgot the most important thing...a lot of peace in Bangalore!!! I wish you parents had never let you go!

    I wish....

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  5. Thanks guys! It must've been one of the strongest emotions I'd ever felt, else I don't see a reasoning for just an ad to remind me of that decisive moment in my life! Happy that you liked it, happier that you guys love me so much, I could figure it out in all those sarcasms :)

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